i wish i knew

A place to rest and believe in detest,
with my thoughts and my dreams,
and things that cannot be seen.

I also deny the reasons as to why,
I may not be real,
and I like to detest the reasons I feel.

And what is my purpose?
I really want to know,
to feel better by myself together with others.

I talk to myself,
and I wait for replies,
but when I talk with me I know my thoughts as to why.

I still want to hear a voice other than mine,
and still with my lonelyness,
people won't even mind.

They think that I'm weird,
but when I'm talking to me,
I make sense and have no reason to defy the reasons why.

I agree with me,
but I still need to know,
what is my purpose to me which is not known?

Am I here for a reason?
is it worth while for you?
can I still believe in the things thought not to be true?

I want to believe that I have a reason,
but to my question I ask,
I still haven't an answer as to why.